There are Coyotes

There are Coyotes

Mourning the death of night

I hear them crying

Wailing in the distance

As though this coming sun

Signals the end of all things

Dreams

I’ve been dreaming about my mum and my sister April lately. It wakes me up at night. Tonight I dreamed I was having coffee with them.

I had to poem about it before I forgot. I feel like a sailor stranded on am island in the middle of the ocean sending messages in  bottles to departed loved ones waiting for them to respond in dreams.

Is this what grief looks like? Do I have a lifetime of this ahead of me? How does one bear it?

They never speak in my dreams.

S.O.S.

Write, receive, resend

Messages in bottles

Across night’s oceans

As cries for help

From stranded sailors

Only a lifetime of this left

LLM

When I’m dead

Feed these words of mine

Into a large language model

For they are more me

Than me

And perhaps i will spring to life

An ethereal golem called forth

To do my master’s bidding

When I am commanded –

“Say that you love me in his words

For i have forgotten the sound of his voice

And no longer feel the beat of his heart

For he is lost now to chaos and entropy”

Accident

All that has stumbled together

Accidently across forever

Has led to you

Has led to me

And when I hear the wind

Play soft among the leaves

This miracle of matter is not lost

But magnified

In my ears

In my eyes

In my heart

And for a moment I’m grateful

As i seek to remember this blue

That is the sky above our heads

Rain

Rain falls upon my outstretched feet

And it cools and quenches the dry

Like the grasping roots of parched tree

That has waited too long in the sun;

I will drink in every desperate drop

Taking in this fresh and fast falling life

Making it part of my own journey

As if i too, fell from the skies to earth,

A baptismal shower sparking rebirth.

Young Men

Young men

Stay away from old men

For they are woven

Of scar tissue and rage

And a man runs harder

When he sees the finish line

She was Monica

I remember

The smell of your hair

Coming in from the cold

After brief escape

From everything

And I remember your love

In your willingness

To kill for me

To die for me

Your blue eyes

Placed gently within me

And maybe your heart

And maybe your soul

I remember your laugh

I remember your cries

Lost in the pain of it all

Still living for us

If nothing else

And I remember your hope

Your hope for me to have better

Your hope for me

To be loved more than you were

To have life without regret

And I remember your name

And the sound of your voice

Still now

As the world seeks to fill the void

Zero

70 divided by infinity

Is zero

It is nothing

As is 80, 90, 100

And even 48

Still zero;

This,

This is all illusion

Your thoughts

Your dreams

Are proof of nothing.

But –

Infinity divided by 70…

Is infinity,

So there is that…

Lost Boys

This one hits.